Being tough

Wow. This morning I was very angry and not sure why I was so filled with anger. I didn't want to let the anger go even though my friend was telling me "breathe let it go " I just couldn't. For some reason I wanted to hold onto that anger and make my day more uncomfortable for myself and others. See I'm human , I get angry at times. I lose my temper at times. I'm not perfect. Nobody is perfect and the ones who claim they are as fake as K2 and bath salts.

Why do we build a barrier? why? We build our life's from the moment we are conscious   of good and bad choices. We do bad things than want to put the blame on others. We ask for help but we don't help ourselves.

Only you will be there for yourself.

Why do people think God doesn't exist? living in a lifestyle filled with happiness and love seems more like a fantasy than a reality to most people. Its a real lifestyle and you chose which lifestyle you want.

You can be a closed minded arrogant weak person. Live your life miserable. Blame others for your actions. Or you can step up to the plate. And start being a person.

You make your life how it is . Open your eyes.

The problem is your afraid of emotions. You want to be tough. Being tough doesn't mean using your fists. That's childish behavior.

Being tough is being able to forgive yourself and others , being tough is taking responsibility for your actions , being tough is being able to solve problems and not create more. A person who lives by fighting dies. A city who fights each other falls. Being tough is helping your family , helping others , not judging others based on what you've heard.

Let your positive  emotions flow and forget about your negative thoughts or actions. Forgive yourself.

We make mistakes its natural. We are learning . No one knows everything about the world so don't act as if you do. Stop talking and start listening.

The wound that never heals

Mending up a wound that appears is never healing. Everyday I try bandages , than try stitches , than try surgery....but nothing ever fills this broken heart. Were getting heart break hotel up in here. Maybe its cause my emotions are getting back in sense , emotions we try to  mask them .  Try to distract ourselves from emotion , doing every trick in the book to escape our harsh reality. Some give up and commit suicide , some do drugs and get a vacation from reality for sometime , some wonder there minds away drifting from reality. Some get angry and  take out their emotions on others , makes them feel a little bit better. Reality is tough. Reality is not a joke ....You got choices I got choices. Whether to live feeling like your on a continuous race struggling or walking humbly? My wounds used to be unhealable. Thinking back on all the missed opportunities , all the girls I should have asked out , all the things I should of would of or shouldn't of. Learn from your past.   Stop thinking about what you shouldn't of done or should of and think about the present.  You cant go back in the past . Let me repeat that you can not go back in the past. You haunt yourself and want others to have pity. Are you ready to solve your problems? Some people know the solutions but don't want to fix their problems. Only you and God can help .. Don't rely on others. At the end of the day you have you and God. When you get heated and very angry go out and exercise its great. Guess my point is you can bandage up your wounds all you want but it takes something else to heal them. At the end of the end you have to face reality. God is reality. If you want healing Jesus Christ does not turn anyone away.

Snakes. The snakes are people who gossip , attempt to bring you down , dont listen to the snakes. they want the ruin of your soul. keep walking.



You cant move forward if your stuck on in the past. keep walking. Forget about your negative thoughts. Renew your mind with positive thoughts and the future. You dont have the power to change the past but you have the power to change the future. Keep your head up and keep walking.

Lifes hard learn to survive.

Life is reality. In reality we face problems everyday , we have obstacles. Difficulites are nothing new in the history of life.Temptations are always floating in the air around us. Even me , I fall into the trap. We have to learn , we have to strengthen ourselves. I used to have a a lot of regret , it was eating me alive. Slowly I started taking each wrong thing I done and taking notice . Examine the situation , learning from that action. That's what its all about. Humans make mistakes , I make mistakes , you make mistakes its natural. Don't fool yourself. Why get mad when you make a mistake? You channel all your thoughts on this mistake and get so mad at yourself. Stop being blind and see. Learn from your mistakes , take notice of the cause and effect. Maybe it wasn't a mistake? Maybe the mistake was a lesson and it opened a better door for you. Life is stressful and very fast paced, but you have to take it easy. Relax. Think things through , examine the situation if the outcome is going to be good or bad. If you know the outcome is going to be bad but you still want to do it , than learn to live with afterwards there might be consequence's. That's the choice you made. You have to really know yourself. If you want to be above others you have to be the servants of others. I know your saying this guy is nuts why would I do that that's not cool....that's stupid.... the snakes are talking to you again. You will get no where in life claiming your the best , taking much pride in yourself , having no respect for human life , don't feel your emotions , are negative , angry , jealous . Kindness go's a long way. Who cares if people judge you , you are stronger than them. They are jealous of you. Your life will improve. Take it slow, baby steps . its hard at first to get used to being nice and having appreciation. Pray for it. Treat others how you would want to be treated. You have no authority to judge others. Why? Because no one is perfect we all make mistakes. God forgives you though ! No matter your religion , race , beliefs , this is something that everyone can understand. We are all equal. We should all express happiness , take our worries to God , think before we speak , think about the outcome of our actions , take care of each other , not judging one another..

Its not easy.

You think I'm crazy? Well everyone kinda is. But this is the truth. This lifestyle will not let you down or bring you down. It will lift you from your problems and better your future. Jesus Christ is real and the devil is real. Who would you want to listen to?

Jesus never lies , never shuts the door.

the devil lies , will turn you away , wants to destroy you.

Why is it so hard to take a few minutes and really think about this? It doesn't cost a penny , you can start now .

The devil wants you to worry he wants to break your faith. he'll do anything . you don't even realize your being used by the devil , your the devils puppet. Even me at one point in my life I was the devils puppet. I was not consciences of my thoughts or actions. My mom prayed , my grandmother prayed, groups at Church's prayed , prayed to Jesus Christ , Prayed the Rosary . They were not let down. It didn't happen overnight . Months into this evil false promising lifestyle I was saved. I completely turned around my life. I didn't want to be saved I wanted to continue destructing my life. I was not in control of the decision. My thoughts were coming back , my actions were more clear , I went to hell and back. Its not a lifestyle you want. I was saved by Jesus Christ.



I'm not perfect , I slip too ...... but you know what? I take each mistake as a lesson and try not to repeat it. I look into the future , the past is unchangeable. I lose my temper , I express anger sometimes , I'm human. What makes a difference is what your going to do to solve your problem. To improve it. To avoid it. Not to regret it and keep repeating it.

Getting your thoughts back in place

Getting back to the gym never felt so good. At first I was thinking well what if the people are like "look at this kid hes not even in shape " than I realized who cares what others think. I;m doing this for myself not for others. I'm not going to go into the gym thinking I'm superman trying to impress others. I don't care what others judge me as , I'm starting back up and going to take it nice and easy. Because when you attempt something new at a face paced level , tyring to impress others , or trying to speed up the results you fail. Whats the point of doing the job if its not done right? In life the only person you have to satisfy is God. Why care what others think of you? What does that do for you? It makes you into somebody your not. You can listen to the snakes or listen to Jesus Christ and God. Don't be afraid to love.

Its very difficult to listen to others , for me at least

but sometimes you have to

if you want to solve your problem

at times we are not ready to solve our problems

so we don't listen to the solutions we keep our self's blind to solutions

Be yourself , don't be afraid of life. Control life don't let life control you.

Learn how to be the best fighter.

Fighting

My generation is becoming more and more distanced from God. The future is all about money , power, anger , jealousy and vanity. Many of us express our emotions negativity to solve a problem. How can we solve a problem (negative ) with another negative solution? Whats -1-(-1) =-2. See let me give you a life example. Someone wants to fight you ( the reason can be anything , over a girl , over money , etc ) you engage and want to fight back. Both of you think its the right move and it will solve the problem. Its a wildfire you are taking two negative forces and enlarging them. Your combing two evil destructing behaviors and combing them together. You thought it was a good idea till you got seriously hurt , killed, or arrested. Learning how to walk away is the greatest strength you can have. Problems are solved with solutions , if you want a positive outcome put in a positive effort. Simply expressing your emotions in a positive way can influence your life so much. When talking in words don't accuse people , belittle them , treat them lower than you. Treat everyone equal and keep an open mind. See the good and not the bad.

Walking away does not make you a coward. The snakes will make you think that. The snakes will tell you , you have to be perfect , you have to be cool. When you think about it whats so cool about being fake? Whats so cool about living a lie? Living and not being yourself. This is life , not a movie stop being an actor and be yourself. There will always be time when people reject you , the snakes will always gossip , but you are strong. You have a shield around you that the snakes can't penetrate. They test you they want you to go back to your old miserable self , don't give up the fight.

Your journey in life.

Your Journey

Faith is commonly mis understood.

What does faith mean to me? Faith means  eliminating all your worries, and putting everything in God's hands. Faith to me is almost the same as trust. You have to trust Jesus Christ and God.

 Bring your worries to God He loves us and doesn't want to see us living like this. The plan for you is never forgotten. From time to time we walk off our path (which is normal - were human).What makes a difference is the ability to put yourself back on your path and keep walking with and toward Jesus , faith , and God. Or you can stay lost for days , months , even years before you realize you want to be strong and lead yourself back onto the path of a good & rewarding life.

There is a reason why everyone was created. Its a hidden treasure , some people never solve the puzzle and some people get it and solve it. Truth is everyone can solve it. Forget about who you were start thinking who you are becoming. Weakness comes from the devil , confidence and courage comes from God. 

The devil will ALWAYS temp you to come off your path he will distract you, he will fool you time after time. Some people are similar to snakes - their evil. They want you to walk off the path , they want the ruin of your soul. Some people make fun of you or on purpose make you feel upset because they themselves are unhappy with their life's.

 You have to remain strong on your walk with God. The devil and his minions will work very hard to twist your faith. Be careful.  Its up to you to know right from wrong.

The devil is not your friend hes the human enemie. He is the worlds best con man . He spent 2,000+  years learning every trick in the book to fool the human race.

God gave us the power to defeat him , hes already been defeated. Some of us dont know this. 


The devil is real. Don't let him or his angels temp you off the path of life. 


negative thoughts , holding your self back from life , weakness those are all from the devil.

Changing your life.

Being able to be alive is the greatest blessing we could receive from our Lord Jesus Christ. However most of us take each morning for granted. We are blind . What causes this? Our sins. Carrying around your sins everywhere you go and reflecting on them non stop. Living in regret living in the past. Your alive but dead inside. Your spirit is crushed. Let me ask if you went out for a walk to the store would you take a 30 pound bag of potatoes with you? Than they carry the heavy burden of the past on your shoulders each day? It pierces your happiness , weakening you. This causes you to stay stuck in the same cycle and keep sinning and destructing your life. I lived the same way glued to my sins . Every moment reflecting on my past mistakes. The thought of all the wrong things Ive done ; disgusted with myself.Than a friend told me "God already forgave you your still alive , now its time you forgive yourself". That's very true you HAVE to forgive yourself and move on. God gives us many chances. Learn from life. Is a mistake really a mistake? Or is a mistake really a life lesson you needed to learn? Living with sin is a dreadful , miserable life , your spirit is quarantined. Break free right now , forget about the past. The past is unchangeable if you reflect on it you'll drive yourself crazy Remove your fear, Jesus is your strength.Jesus is the way ,the truth , and the life. Jesus saves you , he loves you. You can change yourself right now. Drop all your worries , and bring God all your burdens. Put 100% faith in God. Pray in Jesus name , after your pray say the prayer Our Father. Than keep your faith , you have to have Patience. Don't boast about your prayers or that your praying . Spread the glory of Jesus Christ. "people don't change" is the devils motto that's whats the devil wants you to think. You wont change if your weak and and don't want to. Change isn't easy , its a hard mountain to climb. Sometimes you'll slip but you keep climbing that mountain. The evil people will always shout to distract you and get you to slip again. Change is a hard barrier to break. But at the end its a rewarding experience. Its hard at first because your adapting to a new environment , a new way of life. Break the Barrier now. Don't take notice of what others judge you as. They are the snakes. We have freewill. We make our decisions.

You cant have happiness if you have built up anger. You cant have appreciation for life when your filled with envy.